Dee (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} spidertea) wrote,@ 2007-06-27 18:56:00 |
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Joe VanHale
I keep tabs on the guy who raped me in 1995. With the internet, it's easy. I know he has a kid. (The mother of his child contacted me about a year ago. She hates his guts and said she was sorry for what he did.)
I also know he lives in Nebraska, but will be in International Falls the first week of July, the same week I will be there. I've always been afraid of running into him. I don't know what I'd do.
Maybe I shouldn't do this to myself. But sometimes I doubt myself, like I made the whole story up and I'm insane, so in a way I want to keep him real. Because when I see pictures of him I know it was real. (When I have panic attacks at the doctor's office or when someone touches my neck I'm also pretty sure it's real.)
I thought I was working on forgiveness. Not now. I was looking through his online photo album and saw this picture:
http://www.bebo.com/PhotoAlbumBig.jsp?P
The girl on the right is actually Jessie, Pig is on the left, that is what he calls his sister. Jessie was my best friend ages 6-16. She stopped being my best friend when I was 16 because when I finally reported the rape to the police, she lied. Everybody at that party lied to the police, even my "friends" who were actual witnesses. I had started to forgive Jessie, she was only 13 when it happened and 15 when the police questioned her, she was just a screwed up kid. But now she is 24, so why the fuck is she friends with the guy who beat up and raped her childhood best friend?
Then I saw this:
http://www.bebo.com/PhotoAlbumBig.jsp?P
Who thinks rape is funny?! Well, Joe does. He thinks it's funny enough to post it in an album kitty corner to the album of his son. Notice how Bart says BITCH in all caps...one of Joe's favorite words right up there with CUNT and SLUT. (Shut up bitch. Bitch, I'll kill you....and later I love you. Call me.) And notice how the title of the picture is "lil sis." Jesus fucking Christ, how in a million years is that funny? I wonder if he is talking about "Pig."
He is obviously a really disturbed person (and not very bright), but I don't care. And I don't care what kind of childhood he had (probably not so good, he grew up 3 houses away from me), or what a dead end life he has now.
I don't usually talk to everybody about this, but now I want the whole world to know what a sick fuck Joe VanHale is. In fact, this is going to be a public post, because this is what kind of society we have- people rally behind the rapist and the rape survivors are called liars and sluts and we are supposed to keep secrets. Fuck that. Besides, why should I be the one who feels ashamed? He's the violent rapist loser who thinks incest cartoons are funny.
I keep tabs on the guy who raped me in 1995. With the internet, it's easy. I know he has a kid. (The mother of his child contacted me about a year ago. She hates his guts and said she was sorry for what he did.)
I also know he lives in Nebraska, but will be in International Falls the first week of July, the same week I will be there. I've always been afraid of running into him. I don't know what I'd do.
Maybe I shouldn't do this to myself. But sometimes I doubt myself, like I made the whole story up and I'm insane, so in a way I want to keep him real. Because when I see pictures of him I know it was real. (When I have panic attacks at the doctor's office or when someone touches my neck I'm also pretty sure it's real.)
I thought I was working on forgiveness. Not now. I was looking through his online photo album and saw this picture:
http://www.bebo.com/PhotoAlbumBig.jsp?P
The girl on the right is actually Jessie, Pig is on the left, that is what he calls his sister. Jessie was my best friend ages 6-16. She stopped being my best friend when I was 16 because when I finally reported the rape to the police, she lied. Everybody at that party lied to the police, even my "friends" who were actual witnesses. I had started to forgive Jessie, she was only 13 when it happened and 15 when the police questioned her, she was just a screwed up kid. But now she is 24, so why the fuck is she friends with the guy who beat up and raped her childhood best friend?
Then I saw this:
http://www.bebo.com/PhotoAlbumBig.jsp?P
Who thinks rape is funny?! Well, Joe does. He thinks it's funny enough to post it in an album kitty corner to the album of his son. Notice how Bart says BITCH in all caps...one of Joe's favorite words right up there with CUNT and SLUT. (Shut up bitch. Bitch, I'll kill you....and later I love you. Call me.) And notice how the title of the picture is "lil sis." Jesus fucking Christ, how in a million years is that funny? I wonder if he is talking about "Pig."
He is obviously a really disturbed person (and not very bright), but I don't care. And I don't care what kind of childhood he had (probably not so good, he grew up 3 houses away from me), or what a dead end life he has now.
I don't usually talk to everybody about this, but now I want the whole world to know what a sick fuck Joe VanHale is. In fact, this is going to be a public post, because this is what kind of society we have- people rally behind the rapist and the rape survivors are called liars and sluts and we are supposed to keep secrets. Fuck that. Besides, why should I be the one who feels ashamed? He's the violent rapist loser who thinks incest cartoons are funny.
